stolen soul

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Sun, 19 Oct 2008 17:41:25 GMT

well well well.. look who's back to LJ. It's been a while since my last time here. Maybe I'll start writing here again. Lots to tell. Many pics to show. I only need to get used to LJ again and It all will be as it used to :)

how well do you know me?

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 11:28:26 GMT

http://www.manidraugi.lv/en/?op=m&t=P3193Mz5d4d3903f2883cac12c7ae211647d07a-20060404

this is if you want to check how well do you know me. Just write your name, email and answer some easy questions about me. And then we'll see...

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 11:19:15 GMT

So, I was to the mountains a week ago... And I have pictures of course. So here they are
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C&C please

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 16:15:56 GMT

I love milkshakes

And about the skiing trip - next time. too lazy now

skiing

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 13:03:14 GMT

well well well...
So, Paula left yesterday, Alex left this morning, and I'm leaving tonight... the difference is, that they left to England and will never be back here, and I'm leaving to France for skiing and after ten days back continuing my 'job'. However, I'll miss Alex and Paula (even if I saw her like three times). And I'm so excidet about my skiing trip!!! I think I'm more excited not because of SKIING, but because I'll have a possibility to make lots of beautiful pictures. YAY!
So... I'll be back in ten days. If you won't see anything new in my journal in like two weeks, then it means that I've died in the snow storm. Oh, come on, I shouldn't joke like that...
Ok, good bye people, see you some day. Whatever if noone reads my LJ:DDD

time

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 14:57:46 GMT

here comes winter

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 12:16:56 GMT

God must be kidding. It wasn't snowing almost whole winter, and now, when it's finally spring, I found my backyard white as I woke up in the morning. And it was also snowing whole morning those big snowflakes. Well, at least i took advantage of that and made a couple of pictures. Ok, it was cold walking barefoot, but I didn't die. Haha.

However, I do not really write LJ lately. I just do not have what to say. Well, today I'm happy, coz as soon as it's 6pm, I'll be free till monday. Sometimes I really love my job. But only sometimes...

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 15:35:24 GMT

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Fri, 10 Feb 2006 13:29:22 GMT

why are my friends so stupid? haha. I'm so bored. But I do not feel like going anywhere while there is such a shitty weather outside. I guess it will be good for my wallet. But probably I... well... I guess I forgot what I wanted to say.

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Sun, 05 Feb 2006 13:46:01 GMT

This weather totally sucks! I hate rain. Today.
Well, here are pictures from yesterday:

So, that's it!

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Sat, 04 Feb 2006 19:46:59 GMT

It's spring! I felt like in spring today... All that weather and singing birds, that was just nice. Again walking to nowhere... Or sitting somewhere on the hill by the sea. That felt good. But I still wanna go home. And I guess I'm al little drunk now. And dutch beer sucks, but I guess I told that like a milion times before. I have some new pictures from today...but you will see them tomorrow, coz I'm too borred now to upload them. And I guess i'm going to sleep. Whatever. Something made me feel sad. I don't know what. haha. Bullshit. Good night people. damn you!

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 15:19:47 GMT

I don't know what I am doing in this place called world, but whatever it is, I know I need something new.

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broken

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 12:41:46 GMT

hrr!!

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 12:38:35 GMT

I hate them!!! I just wanted to print some of my pictures. And I liked them as they were, who asked to change colours or increase contrast? And as if it's not enough, they cut sides of my pictures!!! Yea, how do you like the picture, where your chin or back of the head is cut off? I'm never gonna print pictures anymore. In Holland. Stupid dutch! I hate it!!

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whatever

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 12:25:15 GMT

so, Wednesday. Cold. I feel confused today, coz I had a stupid dreams tonight again. It's just so weird. It's like in the morning after some wild party you wake up and don't really remember details, but remember what you did. And you did something really stupid. That's how I feel. I did lot of stupid things tonight. Thank God it was only in my dreams. Haha. Why can't I remember nice dreams and forget stupid ones? That's so confusing. I should contact my friend, who was in my dream. Oh, that would be funny. But I won't. He wouldn't understand that, I think. Haha. I'm talking bullshit again. Or am I dreaming? Whatever. I'm going to the cinema with my little monster today. I wish he could understand english, or at least he could read. Now I will have to watch the movie in dutch. Yuck. However, as I do not really go outside in weekdays, so I do not have what to picture. So I made some pictures in my backyard. Haha. Enjoy.

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Tue, 31 Jan 2006 13:48:43 GMT

So... 89 days left. God, I'm so waiting for going home, that I can not stop thinking of that. And so the time goes... It's the last day of January. Cool. Haha. I think, I gotta do something, or I'm gonna get so crazy that no one will let me into the plain when I'll go home. They will say, that I am terorist and want to explode the plain. Haha. If you are still reading this, than you are weird, coz all I said is bullshit. Stop reading! I said, stop reading!!! OK, whatever... What else do you expect to hear (read)? You think I'm going to tell you, that I am crazy? No, I'm not going to do that. I already did! haha :DDD
Well, that was it for now.

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Weekly critique

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 17:18:46 GMT

shut up!

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 08:34:22 GMT

Some rules after tonight:
1. Never EVER use beer, cola, coffee, tea, chips, tomatoes and chocolate in one evening. Unless, you want to throw up.
2. If you DO want to throw up, do it before you go to sleep. Unless you want to spend all night trying to sleep but being too sick for that.
3. Do not spend all night on the internet. Unless you really have something interesting or/and useful to do.

I guess that's all for this time. Byt the way, I'm supposed to be going to Belgium, that I planned for last two months. Well, I'm not going as you can see.
Have a good day;)
I'm going to sleep. Yay!!

pathetic

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 17:13:48 GMT

Pathetic. My life is fuckin pathetic. I am pathetic. Yesterday I've spent all my fuckin day out to fuckin downtown doing totally fuckin nothing with my friend. And finally sitting in fuckin pub, spending all fuckin money. Then dancing in some fuckin club. After that waiting for fuckin night bus and having no money to pay for it. So, guess, how did i get home tonight. Yea, walking. Alone, in the middle of fuckin freezing night more than 10 fucking kilometers. And would anyone tell me that I am normal? I don't fuckin think so. I could sleep at my friend's. Why didn't I? Fuckin good question. I'm fuckin pathetic. My legs feel like broken today. I don't get it. I mean, I don't get myself. Thats just pathetic (and I just love that word).
And here is the view to the club from upstairs (it's illegal to go there. I mean, upstairs)

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 20:13:48 GMT

well...
I guess I want to write something.
I just don't know what.
Haha.
Did you know that today is FRIDAY THE 13TH.
Boo.
Scary...
haha.
Nothing bad happened, it never does on this day.
Why everyone is so scared of it?
I had a good day.
And that little monster is so nice today.
I don't know what happened, he even made a cup of tea for me! well, of course with my help.
haha.
It's so borring.
I guess I'm going to take some ice cream and watch all those stupid friday 13th's movies.
Wooo... scary movies...
haha
Ok, enough of being stupid.
Have a good (scary) night.
muhahaha!!!

some new

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 21:09:27 GMT

just some. well, I wish the quality was good. But it's not my camera and it's only 2 Mpix

I just don't

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 18:16:09 GMT

I just want someone to find me
As I sit here alone
In the dark corner of my room
But You are not looking hard enough
You may see everyone around me
But not me
Or maybe it's better
Not to see
Not to find
To forget

What do I want?
What do I need?
Don't ask that
Answer
Coz I don't know

feelings

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 16:54:46 GMT

As all of you know, my feelings are as unstable as dutch weather. In fact, comparing to my feelings, dutch weather is stable. However, that's about my todays feelings. Ready? Go.
So, it all started with finishing my book. The end was so shocking and veeery unexpected. In a minute I finished it I decided to go to library for other that author's book (that's my thing, if I like the book, I need to read other books written by the same author). So in a minute I was on my way to center. I went to library, took couple of books and because of the nice weather decided to go for a walk. Feeling - happy.
On the way through the center someone said Hi, someone started asking me something in ducth and I just told that i don't speak dutch (and of course the sentence I heard after was: "Oh, you don't speak dutch..."). However that was a nice walking. Feeling - blithe.
Then I got to the bus home. Three screaming kids all the way! Headache. Feeling - annoyed.
And then comes the 15 minutes of different feelings. Firstly I was happy to get out of screaming bus. Then I got to the shop to buy some bread and when I was at the queue the feeling became sick. Not SICK sick, but PARANOID sick (I think it's because of the shop-guy, who reminded me of my one unsuccesful evening). Finally after taking all my stuff and paying for it I got out from the shop and the feeling "I am being followed" came (and 'no one was after me). After that I felt like crying until my hands got so cold (I forgot to put on gloves), that I couldn't feel anything else. Well, finally, after all my 5 minutes walking home I felt safe and warm, with a cup of tea in my hands.

And by the way, why the weather is so stupid? Before my sister coming it was warm and sunny all the time. And when she came it become cold and snowy and rainy and wet and windy. And on the last day, when she sat into the bus home the sun started shining again! I don't get it! It's just so stupid. It's just like in summer, when I went home for two weeks. Before me coming and after leaving, there was hot and sunny in Lithuania and while I was staying there, it was rainy and even stormy there. That sucks! Yea!
Ok, I'm done with LJ today I think. See you next time;)

sales

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 17:24:42 GMT

Bad, bad, bad! Sales are BAD! Big sales are bad! My saving money action failed. AGAIN. Damn sales! Well, sure, it's my fault. But how can you leave something for someone other to buy, when it's so cheap? Haha. Whatever. It's cold. And I love tea so much...

summary 2005

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 12:56:36 GMT

Summary of year 2005:

January. Deep depression. 10th January - failed exam, lost mobile and baaaaad evening. Thoughts about suicide. Only thoughts and plans. Nothing real. More failed exams. Thoughts about going away from Lithuania.

February. Depression kinda over. Until the 10th of February's night. Baaaad night. Long story (friends only). Deep depression again. Nice Valentines' night, though. More thoughts about going away somewhere.

March. Real plans about going to Holland. Quit university. Going back home to my parents. News from agency about my living in Holland. Leaving on 30th.

April. Holland. First family. Exploring my living place. Learning about Holland and dutch culture. Going to wonderful place called Keukenhof (plantations of tulips and other flowers)

May. New family. Good one. Trying to understand dutch language, then trying to talk in it. Exploring further Holland. Visiting sea at least twice a week. Spending money on two of my loves: converse and digital camera. Making lots of pictures.

June. 3rd June - going to Paris. Awsome trip with seeing Eifel tower and spending all day in Disneyland Resort Paris. Meeting Ola. Then meeting Violeta. And also meeting my best friend for 15 minutes in Amsterdam.

July. Fun time. Smoking pot for the first time. Having fun. And... having fun. Good summer. Fun.

August. Going home for two weeks! Meeting all my friends. Spending weekend by the sea with family. Few days in Vilnius with my lovely sister, that was the best my time in those two weeks. Then back to Holland. 24th August - my 20th birthday. Nothing loud, just some beers with Ola. 25th August - joining LJ, haha.

September. Having some more fun. Finally in the end of the month, going to Belgium (however, this trip is written with all details somewhere in my LJ).

October. Doing totally nothing. Home all the time. Saving money. Month of my best pictures.

November. Starting dutch course. Meeting some new girls. Going for Wednesday's beer. One more good month for my pictures. Signing up in library and spending lot of time in there (that is really lovely library).

December. Not really successfull month. Neither in parties nor in photography. Christmas Eve - getting drunk alone while watching Christmas movie and crying because of being alone. Christmas - 13 hours non stop TV watching, with huge headache from Christmas Eve. Well, now fun part: 28th - my sister coming to visit me! Traveling a lot with her. Making lots of pictures of buildings (she's architect...). Having good time. Quite but nice New Years eve. Non stopping fireworks all night. And year is over...

That was quick... I thought, I'll have to think long to remember things, but I guess, there weren't that much to remember. Well, now some notices about this year.

What changed:

living place

friends

viewpoint of life

music style

thoughts about ... (I know what)

thoughts about ... (I know who)

comunication with some people

What's new:

passion for photography

one more language

first Christmas not home, without family and friends

life

Year pictures in next entry
And there also are so many things missing to say. I just do not know now